Gahhhhhhhhhhhh

The title sums up my feelings concisely. I don't know why, but I get frustrated really easily. It can be from not understanding how to do a single problem on a physics worksheet or from talking to certain people. Either way, I'll get angry quickly.

It used to be worse when I was younger. I'd get frustrated over video games or reading a boring book and just refuse to do anything. It didn't help that I was (and still am) a pretty aggressive person, though I've gotten a lot better. I don't understand why I get so angry, but I do.

I also get stressed out really easily, which then can lead to me getting angry. So, to try to avoid this, I've been trying to get myself more time to relax and not worry about anything. Unfortunately, I haven't had much time recently so it's hard for me to make time to just relax. Part of it is just that the quarter is ending, college apps are due in about 2 weeks, and studying for standardized tests. Though it probably doesn't help that I also overstress myself when it comes to any kind of test or essay.

Whatever, moving on. Having a cold really sucks. My nose gets stuffy, I cough a ton, and I'm constantly cold. The biggest problem I have with me having a cold is that I really hate to miss school. So pretty much, I bring a lot of pain and annoyance on myself. I try constantly to go to school because I have having to catch up on work. As a result, this probably makes me feel a bit worse. The worst part is that I still have to take an ACT this month so I'm sick at one of the worst possible times (the others being finals period and times when heading out for a vacation). I've had a couple friends tell me to just take a day off but I'm too stubborn to. I have a really stupid rule I've set for myself, "If I can still move without a ton of discomfort, I can go to school." Maybe I'll finally stop being so stubborn one day, but for now, I'll just stay away from others.