Just going to put this out there, I don't know at this point, but this will probably cover 3-4 different things that I've been thinking of, or I might split it into multiple posts, not sure yet. Some I've been thinking of for a week, some just popped into my head while I was reading other people's blog post(s).
So, to start out, I've always been curious about death. Now, it is one of my biggest fears, but I also really want to know what it's like to experience death, from a scientific standpoint (not really, I'm just super curious). I mean, I like to imagine it's kinda like when we sleep, just almost floating/experiencing nothing, other than darkness (assuming you're not dreaming). I've never been dead, so I can't really say what's on the other side. Maybe there really is a Heaven, Purgatory, and Hell. Maybe there isn't. Maybe we're just all dreaming in our everyday lives and we wake up when we die.
Now, one of the main things about how death is portrayed has made me wonder, is that what dying really is like? The dramatic movie (or book) death where the character is slowly losing their strength and consciousness, watching everybody around them as their eyes slowly close. Now, I'm going to just say it, even though it may seem unpopular. That seems like a "great" death, assuming the people around are people who care about you. Dying with people who actually care about you would be really nice, because the last thing you'd see would be faces you're familiar with. I'm not gonna lie, when I die, I really hope it's like that, but I doubt it because that's probably way too idealistic. Though however, I die, I just don't want it to be too painful.
But enough of that gloomy stuff! I don't like being too depressing because it's just not a nice thing to feel sad. Now, I'm just curious because death is just unknown. I'm probably going to be repeating myself a lot, but it's because I just really want to get my point(s) across. Like most people, I am just absolutely terrified of death, because everything about it is unknown! But that's also why I'm just so curious about it. Will it be absolutely awesome? Will it suck? Will it just be boring like everyday life? Maybe we'll get put in our personal paradise, or maybe it will be a vast nothingness.
Anyways, that's just my mind when it comes to death. I've also made up my mind, I'm sticking with a mega post, or at least I hope it might possibly look like a mega post...ON TO THE NEXT TOPIC!
So, I'm a person who really doesn't like to experience new things, and while I know it's not really great, I can't care enough to change. I really like the saying, "If it ain't broke, don't fix it." because it works! Why should I try something new that I could completely hate and regret doing when I already have stuff that I like right in front of me?
Why should I try one of the "classics" as opposed to my lovely (and occasionally poorly written) fanfiction? I mean, reading actual amazing writing that's been poofread by editors is so overrated!
Why should I try to make myself try new things when there are great old things here? I don't want to end up wasting my time and finding out that it could've been better spent doing nothing of any real significance!
Why should I try new foods? What if it turns out that I'm highly allergic and I need to go to the hospital? I mean, that would really suck because I don't want to go to the hospital...It's sooo clean and quiet and boring and smells of the fear of children and various adults!
Now, maybe I'm just being really immature about this, but so what? My life, not yours, so in the end, I'm the one that decides how I live it! So HA!
...Yeah, I'm a hypocrite...Like, big time. I've tried to make myself do a lot of stupid things, like slowly learning various parts to a song to hopefully do an acapella with some friends. I've made myself try new foods because I realize it would be healthier for me. I've made myself try living without sweets because it wouldn't kill me to do so. In the end, I'm just a normal human who says one thing and does the other. So sue me. Actually, don't because that would be really stupid and I don't think you would win that lawsuit...
So anyways, I've changed my mind, I'm going to be writing another blog post the second I publish this one, so look forward to another one! Or don't, not my problem if you hate my guts and my writing and my blog posts and everything I do. I don't have to care, because it's your opinions and either way I can't do anything to really change that. Here's hoping my other one doesn't take forever to write!
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